Sunday, March 30, 2014

Chakra Care: Easy Path To Your Desires

Whew!  It's been a few days since I have come and hung out with you Love.  Did you miss me?  Were you worried about me?  Worried that I might have gone off the deep end again, gotten to wrapped up in a dark story?

Nah, none of the above.  Just didn't really have anything to write about and was too busy in my mind working through some other things.  Wait actually that is a bit of a lie, I was working through a dark story.  I guess I didn't care to air my dirty laundry here.  lol  Growth or dignity?  Ahhhh, well whatever it is the lesson that has come out of it is what I do want to tell you about.

Self Care, Energy and Chakra's.

 I have played in the realm of self care many times in my letters to you, as well as Energy.  I find the more deeply aware of these two things I become naturally the more I notice how much goes into the care of myself.  I also notice how very few people around me truly know how to take care of themselves and if they do know, how many choose to abuse themselves.

I included in that list.

So here is once again my guidelines for myself on self care and energy.  I am going to work with each chakra this time as it gives me a more solid focal point to tie in my self care regime.

The Root Chakra which sits at the base of your spine and spins red.  Is the first of seven energy vortexs in your body.  When I first began working with the charkra I spent much time visualizing them spinning fast and clear.  Very little time working on the inner issues that caused the chakras to be slow and muddy in the first place.

This first Chakra deals with our sense of security.  Security ranging from paying our bills on time, to having a home that brings us joy, to letting go of our fears.  It includes relationships that we feel safe in and keeping ourselves grounded deeply into mother earth.   Fueling our bodies properly and working them right falls into this Chakra as well.

I have let my self care slip in way of paying my bills on time.  I always, always have extra money at the end of the month. Always.  No matter what my paycheck is my mindset is that of financial abundance and therefor I always have what I need when I need it.  My fear of being broke has crept up and now two energy self care sucking vampires have lodged themselves into my root chakra.

How and why?  It's easy for me to see.

 The most simplistic task of feeding my body and working it properly has slipped into oblivion.

With that sickness that plagued me for well over six weeks I was unable to move my body physically without coughing up a lung and depression set in fairly quickly.  Anger at my body for betraying me and showing weakness I punished her by eating ridiculously dead energy foods.

The battle between me and my body still rages I see now.  My body betrayed me much when I was a child, I lack very little trust in her and my relationship is far from safe.  Its a damn good thing I am training to be a hypnotherapist and learning to live in the Now and let the past be where it is suppose to....dead energy long gone.

Awareness is all I need to heal a life long ailment.

Taking care of my physical body is the root of all the other energy drains in my life.  Healing my relationship with her is now my first step.  Getting my bills back on track will help raise my mindset about money along with some affirmations.  I have been grounding more this past week and because of that I am here connecting with you again Love.  So moving on...

Sacral Chakra is about relationships family, friends and romantic ones.  Its about sexuality and creativity.  It's my cauldron center, where my desires are born.  The place I feel joy and pleasure.  Having fallen victim to my addictive unhealthy pleasures in the recent past I still play in the dark stories this has created for me.

The difference between the dark story and the light:  Dark.... relationships are formed to benefit me or the other in someway.  Desires are for instant gratification and ego.  Joy and happiness is sought outside myself.  Light...... Relationships are a connection to my higher power and an extension of myself.  Desires are deep and primal passions for the purpose of my life.  Joy and happiness are always in my heart and called upon easily at will.

With the abuse of my body through over eating and consciously eating toxins I have craved other things to lift my spirits and raise my energy.  I have sought outside myself physical comforts and let my instant gratification and need for connection become dirty and tainted.  As I say this it sounds harsh, yet I know in my heart that I am just clearing away the last of a lower vibration that has been with me for a very long time.  I didn't go to the darkest places of my imagination as I have experienced before.  Only skirted them.

Solar Plexus is a place of our own personal power, located right below our rib cage.  Our connection to ourselves, our self love and confidence lives here.  It is because of all the work I have done on myself that this Chakra stays balanced through this little bout of unbalance in my life.  My confidence and my inner knowing that I am walking the light road is what pulls me through the last remnants of  my dark stories.  This is the core of who I am.  In the negative this is one of egotism and narcissism.   I can definitely border on that, a few people tell me to get over myself when they are in a negative place or I am skirting some dark desires.

The fourth Chakra is that of the heart and where we feel the deepest sense of love and compassion.  When I abuse my body I lose connection with my heart.  Self care is the first thing, when ignored, that is felt in the heart chakra for me.  I will often hear myself saying... I can't feel my heart, I am out of love.  where did the Love go?  ....

 With this recent vibration shift I learned a deep truth.  If I harm myself by not taking the best care of myself I am not in Love.  I can only feel Love when I do kind and gentle things for myself.  The more self care I give myself the more Love I experience.

Learning what self care I need has been the fun part about learning myself these past few years.  I love meditation.  Riding my bike through the trails. Blogging.  Reading anything on the mind and levels of consciousness.  I love walnuts, I feel amazing after a handful.  I need to cuddle with my daughter at least once a day..... the list goes on and on.  Self care brings back my Love

The throat chakra.... probably the toughest energy to work with for me.  Expression.  Communication.  Truth.  I have been working on this one the deepest for all my life.  This past illness showed me that I still have ample work here if I want to find joy in my lifes path.  Being unable to breath without coughing, or being plugged up.  My throat was the place everything had to pass through.   Self care in this category is about  speaking your truth in the moment.  Telling people what you need when you need it.  I asked for a holiday back in September and never got it until I got very sick in Febuary.

Feelings come through your throat.  They come up from your stomach, your sacral chakra, to your throat to be expressed.  Arts and crafts, music and poetry, dance and fashion are all outlets for your feelings.  Creativity is not an option or a luxury in life, why do you think they teach it in elementary... its a release to your feelings.

 The dark story release is the one where you spew your bullshit words all over hostages.  Pelting them with your negative energy, your words like daggers.  Afterwords you feel better but the negative energy is now seeking... you just spread your toxic venom like a plague... good on ya!

I have done that many times.

The Sixth Chakra is the third eye chakra and the one that I am in school learning how to encourage others to develop.  Connection to your thoughts, actions.... your mind.  It's where you visualize and meet you greater then consciousness.. that loving voice inside you that creates whatever your mind thinks and your feelings fuel. This is the power center of manifesting your desires.

One huge awareness here for me recently.... the stronger this energy center becomes the more powerful you become at creating what you want.  This energy does not and I repeat again does NOT decipher a light story from a dark one.  When I am unbalanced in the base chakra the root of all my chakra's it is the third eye chakra that will manifest that unbalance in the outside world.

If I am craving sex and fatty foods... my greater then consciousness will bring those to me in abundance.  It amuses me watching the drug addict always find the means to get more dope...expensive dope.  How is that possible?  Because they manifest it to them through their third eye.  The desire...thoughts and feelings are so raw and real for them that their consciousness provides it. The opportunities for crime and dirty money become abundant for them.

 People that are that raw and real for their goals to become something also manifest the rags to riches stories.
Understanding that this power center truly just creates what it is you want, you realize that the power has always resided within you.  There is not an outside influence, just you and the experiences you create with your own desires.  This is why it is so important to learn to manage your thoughts and feelings... select them like you do your clothes everyday.

The last chakra or energy center is your connection to the divine.  Unity consciousness.  Your belief in something spiritual that fills your body with light and connection to all that is.  It really matters not what path you take, what your belief is or who you pray to.  Your connection to a star of your choice to help you understand that we are all connected, we are all one and the same energy and we all are in this together.  It is that knowing that removes the feelings of abandonment, separation and loneliness.  To open this chakra and let in the energy of connection is the greatest and fastest way to heal all your other chakra's.

There I said it all Love.  Hopefully this time writing it all out, I will actually stay in a place of self care and love and really work at not abusing myself in anyway.  Living in the Now I think is truly the key.  Knowing without a doubt that there is no past.  It is gone.  Letting feelings come back to haunt me serve no purpose in my present and only create fear for my future.  Being in this moment my connection to the divine walks me through what needs to be released in the moment, I no longer need to go digging.  I understand that I can let go as easily as deciding to do so, there does not need to be two years of therapy as was programmed into us to believe.

So My love I shed the dark stories that have been holding me hostage and I move back into the light with Love and grace and an abundance of gratitude.  And truly an overwhelming amount of joy at the realization of how fun this game of life is.

Friday, March 14, 2014

Inner Soul Cleansing

Oh Love,

Do you ever wonder why when you are feeling really awesome people easily flock into your energy field.  Do you notice that when your feeling down people try to avoid you like the plague?   Are you aware of that?   As I forcefully cough out a lung I am going to conclude that I am on the mend.  How do I know this?   Because people are coming around me again.

I have learned so much more about how unlimited the concept is of what we put out to the universe comes back to us threefold among this past 6 weeks of illness.  I have been working on the art of manifestation beyond ten years now and I still conceive there is a whole galaxy of infinite understanding to expand on.

It was two months ago that I was flying high in an amazing energy rush of light, love and happiness.  My meditations were easily reaching realms I had never experienced before and could scarcely understand.  Naturally, it was awesome!  Then I asked my guides to prepare my mind and body for unlimited energy frequencies.  I speculate I got greedy, maybe I asked for too much too soon, the next thing I notice I beleive I am dropped into a very dense third dimensional sickness.

I  felt lost, abandoned and utterly incapable of bringing myself out of this illness.   That lack of control over what was happening to my body was a spiraling factor for me. Obviously, I had not yet discovered that I could react to the changes anyway I chose to but I could not stop or change the changes themselves.  I could not change them cause I had been the one that asked for them.

I perceive, there are truly many layers to my illness in the spiritual realm and there are many very mundane simple peels to it as well.  I love my unlimited reality of excitement and inner (safe) drama so I always choose to naturally focus on the more deep complex reasons for something.

Now I understand that on the mundane level I had the flu turned cold and continued into a bronchial infection.  These illness's mean that I gave into mass societal negativity and was unable to open myself to new thoughts and beliefs and  effectively closed myself off to all flows of energy.   This interpretation truly fits with where I am at in my life because the course I am taking is easily busting open all the ways we continue to be lead as people by the masses.  My awareness has brought it into me and for a time I began to assimilate and consider it for myself.

I repeated that fourth dimensional train of thought for six weeks.  I couldn't get out of it even though I understood what was happening and even what I had to do.  I worked affirmations and had treatments done, powered up on vitamins and herbs.  Still today I am hacking out what feels like my entire internal workings.  Why?

I conclude I am effectively beginning to understand what it means to go with the flow.  I feel I am beginning to expand my awareness through my acceptance, that the only thing I can change is how I react to things.  In the moment, we create with our minds yet those creations do not expand and manifest instantly.  For the most part.  So when a thought from before expands and comes naturally whirling back to us in a form of an experience we only hold power in how to react to it.

I need to contemplate here for my own understanding,  this is all new stuff coming out of my mind.  I speculate my higher conscious is working me through this!  I asked for my body and mind to be able to naturally resonate and hold an unlimited higher frequency of love.  Dear, you have known me for many years, you know that I have a very hard time staying among that love frequency.  Its like my mind cannot assume it for longer then three months.  So by asking for this energy expansion two months ago I must accept the process that is happening within if I wish for it to go smoothly.

I am aware I have not been reacting in kind fashion.  I have been so focused on fourth dimensional love which is the place I struggle to get beyond. I imagine I can only hold it for a short period of time because its a love that is conditional.  I made myself sick by allowing myself to easily get to wrapped up in societal trance.  Thats fourth dimensional thought and experience, it is truly limited.

This is what I conclude from my own meditations, its among my own experience and yours may be much different then this.  I don't pretend to know what your reality expands beyond, sweetheart.

Currently with the help of a beautiful teacher I have in my life I was able to easily step away from that fourth dimension energy and move into the fifth more unlimited, unconditional love vibration.  I realize I am not sick because of society, I am sick because I asked to be cleared of the things in my mind holding me back from truly loving myself and others at a higher frequency then what I was able to in the past.  My forceful coughs are physical purging actions my body needs to go through in order to expel the toxic energy that resides in me and no longer fits with my vibration.

This highest understanding has helped me to actually encourage the coughing fits to continue to the point of puking because with each fit a bit more unconditional love spews out of me clearing space for a new higher energy to take up space there.

I also just became aware of what vibrations and frequencies really are in our bodies.  They are our feelings.  I have spent the past year working diligently on identifying my feelings and understanding them.  I naturally moved into raising my vibrations without truly understanding that I was taking my feelings to a whole new level.  To be stuck in the third dimensional energy is to block your feelings.  To move into fourth is to uncover them and give them expression yet with conditions.  I truly believe as I move into fifth dimensional vibration its to let them flow knowing they are always from a place of love even if they are perceived in duality to be on the more negative spectrum.

Each one of us frequents a vibration whether its something we understand or not.  We all have the path we choose to walk to self understanding and self love.  I have walked many paths before and all of them say the same thing as I understand now.  I am grateful that we have so many ways to proceed in order to learn to love ourselves.

So my love, here is to me vibrating a higher frequency and sending that love to you in pulses!  Until next time...

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Thursday, March 6, 2014

From Chest Infection to The Breath of Life

Oh Love,

 I have battled this cold for over five weeks now.  Yesterday went back to the Dr's and found out it has turned into a chest infection.

Now I cannot stress enough the fact that I never get sick.  Truly I am a healthy active female that takes good care of her health and has a very strong mind when manifesting what I want.  When I feel a sickness lurking in the corners of my energy field I am quick to move my mind away from it.

So how did this one get full access too my life?

Well there is the obvious mundane reasons and their are the deeper spiritual meanings which ones do you want me to spoon in first?

Of course I always eat my desert before my dinner.  Spiritual meaning first.

Chest infection:  hard time breathing:  The breath of life.  This chest infection is restricting my intake of life.

With all the new beliefs I have been entertaining and all the old vibrations shifting out of my life I am  bit of a mess.  I never handle any kind of change with grace.  It doesn't matter if I actively invite the change in.  It doesn't matter if I have been preparing for this change my entire life.  I still kick scream, bite, piss and moan with the theatrics of a toddler in a grocery store.  That is what my chest infection is really about.

My fear of moving into something new and totally foreign to me.  Something exciting and exhilarating.  Moving into new divine energy.  New beliefs.  New situations.  New friends.  Everything around me is so new and exciting.  Its seems only totally natural to go and stick my head in the sand with my legs knocking at the knee's.   Right?

This is how I roll sweetheart, always has been.  Looking back at the past, I see where I have actually kept my head in the sand long enough that the newness passed me by and when I emerged my life was the comfortable old again.  Man, the disappointment in myself in those times was terrible.  I had to wait for the turn of another cycle before I could get the chance again to experience something new and great.

Well here my change is again and I am falling into old habits of running and hiding.  Why do I do that?  It seems so ludicrous doesn't it?

Well in fairness to myself, cause I am human and prefer to be such today, and I am learning to love myself and all my crazy sniffing sand antics... I am aware of it this time.  I believe that being self aware is the first step in truly awakening to all that is.  I am aware in the middle of my cowardly way and now have the chance to change it and flow with the breath of life.

In asking my Greater the consciousness for guidance on rectifying my chest infection I was lead to all the ways I have let my body become deficient in nutrients.  I was kinda shocked to realize I have not been getting nearly enough vitamins lately.  I have been queen of healthy eating for so long that I became complacent and let my fruit and veggie intake slip away to nothing, replaced by sugars and starches.  I knew I was eating more junk but that didn't bother me except that it hid the fact I was starting to replace and not just compliment my nutrition.  Life is about moderation and balance.  Lost my balance in this area.

So I have been taking massive doses of Vitamin C to get the antioxidants I need.  Large doses of Vitamin D as the sun as been all but present and from my summer in the sun days my body is definitely freaking out a bit.  I am on a multi vitamin and a schwack of other health boosting fast acting herbs to jump start my system.  Loaded up on the active enzymes in fresh fruits and veggies and already I am starting the feel my body begin to ease back into comfort.

Learning to live in this world with this body as well as reach new heights in my mind and consciousness is the
new divine path I am working through.  Learning anything new has its challenges and its lessons.  This is one that even though I am still in the middle of I am fairly confident I will pass with flying colors.

I hope you are well Love.  Sending you my new developing vibrations where ever you are in the world.

Saturday, March 1, 2014

What You Think, You Are.

What we put our focus on persists.  This I have been learning in my Hypnotherapy course.  I say learning but really it has brought an awareness to an experience I have already had many times over.

I am sick with a terrible cold.  I have had this cold for well over three weeks.  I never gets colds or flu's, or better said I never allow myself to get sick.  So I have been kinda head scratching as to why I have let this one get so out of control.  I know the power of the mind and I fully take responsibility for my part in this cold developing as such.

Every morning I wake up my first thought is.... oh this stupid cold is still here.   When I go to bed my last thought of the day is... I hope this cold will let me sleep.  Through out the day My thoughts are... I hate my job and I am feeling sick so I should go home and rest.

All day long I am putting my attention on my cold.  I have learned in the past whatever I put my attention on grows.  When I used to be in weight loss kicks and I put my attention on not gaining weight I always seemed to plateau the scale.  It took me a very long time to move my attention away from weight loss and put it towards loving my body as it is and letting the magic of Love take the weight off.  Instead of the self loathing of eating the wrong foods.

It has always been easy to focus my attention in a positive manner where my work is concerned.  I am an ambitious woman so I am always thinking about my next step.  My careers have always moved at a rapid fire pace.  I say careers cause I am always changing them.   lol  But even in this area recently I have slowed down.  I am in  job I don't so much like anymore.  However I have a 3 year game plan that will put me into the career of my dreams and for that I am trying to be excited.

It's not working though because my thoughts are in the present moment and in this moment I am not happy with where my life is.  So how do I change my thoughts around so that I can turn this cold around?

This is the field I want to master my life's work in, I had better start working on mastering it in myself first.  Change your thoughts.  Change your life.  The point of Power is NOW.   Those are two fundamental truths that I do fully accept yet am struggling to practice.

I want to dive head first into a sob story about why I am keeping myself sick and all the human trauma's that I have endured that make it acceptable for me to play in a puddle of pity.  Although its not becoming of me anymore.  We are not sad stories meant to be rehashed over and over again.  We have incredible personalities and gifts born out of our experiences through life.  I am grateful today for my experiences, all of them.  I am who I am today because of each and every one of those good times and bad times of my past and to be fully truthful, I really do love who I am becoming.  So no sob story here.

What we put focus on manifests.  Simple.

We live in a universe that reacts to our thoughts.  Change your thoughts and your outer world follows suit.  It's time that my thoughts become healthy and loving again.   How am I going to do this?

Before I even open my eye's in the morning I pattern my first thought around something I want to manifest in my life.  When I go to bed at night my last thoughts are of excitement over that manifestation already starting to develop.  I make sure somewhere in my day I take an active step towards what I want to manifest.  I go into silence Twice a day morning and night and take myself through a deep visualization of what it is I want to achieve.  That is the way I change my thoughts around.

When I look back at all the things I have manifested in my life, it has only been through my continued attention that made them manifest in a way that I wanted them too.  Lots of the times when they did manifest I realized it wasn't what I wanted, but that was part of the process of getting to know myself.  Today i manifest from a deep place of relaxation that I have been able to achieve through practiced meditation.  To work with ones own mind it takes practice and discipline.  The mind is like that of a 13 year old girl....easily distracted and sometimes entirely stubborn.

I share this with you my Love only to remind myself of the actions I need to take to finally get over this cold once and for all.  So send me love and well wishes for full Health the next time I come over for a chat.  As always I love you!